like imagine just getting stuck in this loophole of constantly having to do every single assignment thats asked and like always being scared ofm essing up and getting a bad grade on something like when i moved here i was like oh im just gonna act like a normal student like im not gonna act smart or anything but then u just get into ur classes and u get good grades without even trying but then sometimes you do try and then you feel shitty when you dont try enough and you dont get something and it’s jsut erally stupid because the whole entire time you’re thinking to yourself like school is stupid how are you going to judge my intelligence based on triangles and shit but even though you have that mentality you try your best anyway bc you’re scared of what’ll happen when you get something wrong even though you know its stupid and pointless you’re just scared anyway
a starry-eyed fall / x
